Allowing the vision the space to emerge

And I wrote: ‘I want to live on the water’ … ‘I want to sell my paintings (for a living)…, ‘I inspire & empower people with my knowledge’

Your heart knows what you are here to do.

You have gifts that are uniquely yours. Things light up your world like they do for no other.

But yet, most of us listen to what others say we ‘should’ do… and follow course.

From the moment we enter this world, our little souls are being guided as to what is right and what is wrong. What we should and should not do -with our time, our bodies, our money. Much of the guidance is well meaning… but all of it is directed through experienced adult eyes. Eyes that view the world through their own lens of experience, challenges and heartaches.

And we are taught to disconnect from our own heart’s whisperings. We set them aside - and we pursue what others have deemed important to them.

But every now and again, either through intentional reflections - or a quiet moment of awe; our heart calls out to us and we HEAR.

We may have heard the small whisperings a thousand times and chosen to ignore, disregard, or deem ‘unrealistic’. But - if we’re lucky … or we’re intentional in creating space and time to really listen - our heart can speak volumes.

I was lucky enough to have this experience this past November. As I was reflecting on an impending pivot in my start-up business, I was in touch enough to realise I was feeling constriction in my body about our next steps.

I (thankfully) asked and took space to allow myself to feel (& listen) more intently to what my body was so clearly telling me. I wasn’t where I was meant to be.

I had been called to started practicing yoga at a local studio a few months prior to this moment (as a yoga teacher myself with some 1000+ hours of training, most of my practice is done at home on my own)… and on this day in early November, I had just finished a beautiful yin to yoga nidra class.

Walking out into the brisk Spring air, I heard in my head, ‘go to your old beach’.

I was only a few minutes away from the home I had first lived in after separating from my first husband; and despite the blustering spring wind, I listened and drove myself to my old beach.

Despite my lack of warm clothing - I walked to the dunes and short boardwalk next to my old home and an immediate sense flooded me - I realised how desperately I want to live by the water again.

I took a photo to remember the moment this inspiration came to me… and I wrote in the Notes section of my phone, ‘I want to live by the water’.

As I was entering that note and the images I’d taken, more came to me.

Almost viscerally, I felt and wrote, “I sell my paintings (for a living) and I inspire and empower people with my knowledge” and added images of recent paintings and my meditation space into my phone.

I lifted up gratitude for the messages that I had received - and went home feeling inspired but having no idea how I might action on these.

What I do know is - the energy I put out is the energy that I receive.

Having received these messages, I expressed gratitude again, and trusted new doors would present themselves so long as I continued to be clear on what I wanted to bring into my life. I also knew that I needed to be patient (not my strong suit) and able to surrender to the outcome; knowing that whatever was in my highest good would unfold.

I headed home to my meditation space and lay down.

It shortly occurred to me that as good of a place as any was to start by opening the realestate app on my phone…

I zero’d in on the suburb I had previously lived in - and there was the house - on the beach - with an artist’s studio in it… and it was open for inspection the next day…

More in my next blog! :)